shit.. i am confused again.. all of a sudden, i am having second thots of whether i shld retake.. at first i thot if i die die oso cant get in ntu or nus, i will juz say hello to sim.. but it seems like i have overlooked the fact that aft uni, i have to start finding a job.. and wat if a sim cert is nt as good as the other uni cert? i will have a hard time finding job.. shit.. y muz i grow up.. i dowan to start work life.. i want my sch life back =( even if i were to work, i wan to work in the areas that i have interest in.. but too bad, i am neither here nor there.. i'm stuck.. i am nt those damn talented in pipa or vball, neither am i damn good in baking.. so i cant earn a living by being a baker or a vballer.. i cant be anything.. =(

all of a sudden, my future seem so bleak..

argh.